I notice that as the blog years roll by, I have less and less to say. Sometimes it is because I am so happy that I really don't have anything to write about. Other times, I am so depressed that I can barely trudge over to the keyboard.
2009, in a nutshell, was a sack full of suckage.
Financially, things were a mess. Our problem with where we will be living still continues. I am still unemployed, albeit by choice. Things are just not as they should be. But, admittedly, there have been years that were far worse.
My husband is optimistic that 2010 is going to be "our" year. He thinks that the housing situation will resolve itself and that things will magically repair themselves. He is making strides to see this dream of his come to fruition. He is good that way. Definitely the rational optimist to my irrational pessimist.
But...I am willing to put on my rose colored glasses for him. After all, no one died (okay, a lot of celebrities did, but no one who is related to us). No one has any fatal illness. Everyone has a home to live in. No one lost their jobs. Everyone is healthy and safe. For that, I am grateful.
2010 is bringing me a new grandson. It is bringing us a lot of uncertainty as far as where we will be living...but there is a lot of excitement there too. Our 14 year old is a happy, well adjusted kid. Our 22 year old is happily married, the mom of a beautiful one year old who is the light of our lives. Her husband is a good guy and treats her with the utmost of respect. And the hotband and I? We're amazing. We are over the moon happy despite the crazy curve balls that have been thrown in our direction over the past year. I can honestly say that when it feels like everything is going to hell in a handbasket, I can look at him and know that everything is going to be alright.
I generally don't do resolutions, or if I do, they are half hearted. But, what I DO is make at least one promise to remove something from my life that negatively affected the year prior. This year, I am letting go of anxiety. I am not going to dwell on things that I have no control over. Let go and let God...as cheesy as that sounds.
So, bring on 2010. I know my little family is ready for it. We will always get by so long as we have one another. Nothing else matters.